New Found Sense of Self Worth & Job!

A life-changing demonstration happened even as I was preparing for class- instruction. I was very unhappy with my work situation which was precarious (in one or two instances most disagreeable or undesirable for a Christian Scientist), and complicated, as I was working free-lance for several different schools and institutions. Some mornings the only thing that got me through was singing Mary Baker Eddy’s hymns quietly to myself when I was with the children in the playground. It was also clear that I needed to work towards financial independence due to my husband’s lack of regular work and our impending separation.

I had been praying for direction fairly regularly for some years which had led me to continue to concentrate my efforts in the field of music, albeit the human prospects for good remuneration were not great. In May of that year I was led to attend a conference for music teachers, which inspired me to re-write my CV and to apply immediately to a number of schools for a full-time job as a music teacher. I was also ‘awakened’ to check out the web-site of a school I was already working in part-time and to re-apply there for a new full-time post. I was interviewed and given a job within a month at that school where I have now been full-time for 2 years.

The thoughts to be overcome in this case were of limitation, lack of the right formal qualifications, and poor self-esteem. At the interview it was very clear that I expressed exactly the right mix of experience and qualities that they needed at that moment and they made me an offer on the spot. I left for class instruction full of joy and expectation, and gratitude to God.

The first year was very challenging, but with my increased understanding of Christian Science I was able to meet every circumstance with a consciousness of divine Love, and an increasing sense of joy, and there were many demonstrations. The school renewed my contract for the following year, and I was also able to take an examination and gain a professional music qualification, which was an answer to a long-held cherished desire. I continue to learn and progress in this role and I am full of gratitude.

There is still a fair sized ‘mountain to be cast into the sea’ as I continue to pray for progress in establishing a greater sense of order and abundance in our experience, but the encouragement I receive from the continued demonstrations show me that all things are indeed possible to God. In particular hymn 166 cheered and strengthened me recently:

Know, O child, thy full salvation,

Rise o’er sin and fear and care,

Joy to find, in every station,

Something still to do or bear.

Think what spirit dwells within thee;

Think what Father’s smiles are thine;

Think what Jesus did to win thee;

Child of heaven, can’st thou repine?

Haste thee on from grace to glory, 

Armed with faith and winged with prayer;

Heaven’s eternal day before thee, 

God’s own hand shall guide thee there.

So fulfil thy holy mission, 

Swift shall pass thy pilgrim days,

Hope shall change to glad fruition,

Faith to sight and prayer to praise.